the fucking luck of being gay

hey guys, you know one of the horrible things of being gay?
that when you're in the best physical shape, when you're being a great person with others and and it's all relatively awesome YOUR 2 EX START TO DATE!
gays are shameless for real
the news of my 2 ex is 2 weeks old and they are already over but it was hell in the meantime... my first ex, alejandro, i hate him with all my being but my second ex, jim, we at least are friends

i remember like 3 days ago when i was drunk and started to hate them on twitter... the good part was that my mom relaxed me(she didn't realized i was a little tipsy, Fuck yeah!) and then i apologized with jim because he didn't deserved to be treated like that by me...
alejandro, that's another story, at the end i just told him that i was tired, that i was tired of all his shit and the void that he has inside him will not be filled with dating others and dumping them when he gets tired

soo... I'm ok again, results that they broke up the before because jim didn't thought alejandro was being honest nor committed to a relationship... and i didn't knew that so that's why I exploded

why can i never get what i want?

hi guys, it has been a lot of time since my last post but now I'm back (hopefully)

since I came out of the closet 2 months ago I've have been feeling awesome, I'm eating better, I'm less stressed, I'm doing exercise and I'm getting kinda sexy... for real, I'm not the same person

I also have better self esteem... or I had better self esteem until I realized that all my friends have a boy/girlfriend, my 2 best friends since we were like 7 years old, Paola and Kevin are also homosexuals and both of them have a partner, and what i hate the most is that they're awesome, their partners are AWESOME

I always wanted someone, who doesn't? but now I'm getting depressed because I'm the only one that doesn't have someone, I'm thinking that I will never have someone no matter what i do, I'm acne free(not like Paola and Kevin), I'm ripped(not like Paola and Kevin), I'm tall(not like Paola and Kevin).... I'm not talking shit of my friends, the thing is that I have things that they don't have but they are happier than me

yesterday was a really crazy day, the 5 of us, Paola, Kevin, Madelaine, Jonathan and me(the 5th wheel) were at Kevin's house and my main goal was to NOT seeing them make out, the last time i saw Kevin and jona kissing like they were at a porn movie I started crying when I was in the shower of my house

we were going to see a movie and spend the time there... well, since i knew we were going to see a movie I knew that i was going to be the only one seeing the movie

we were at Kevin's room on the bed and I was in one corner, i was going to watch the movie and i was also going to block the things that the others were doing with pillows, at first it was working but then I got sad... now i know that I don't need to see them kissing to make me sad, i only have to know that they're a couple to trigger the sadness... so I got out of the room crying with a pillow on my face and then Paola came with me, we sat and started talking and she cheer me up a little

at the end we were going back to the room and Jonathan was ON Kevin and I just left and entered other room, I was on a bed and i was thinking a lot of things... at the end i just got some bottles of alcohol and I got really drunk and i went to the hot room.... for real, that room was ON FIRE and my theory was right, i didn't felt anything when i saw Paola with Madelaine and Kevin with Jonathan

Jonathan and Kevin were nagging me and I just wanted to drink some more, but Kevin took my glass and i knew that was for the best so i didn't complained too much about that

it was really late so we had to get the fuck out of there because of our parents were going to kill us all and i was drunk so you can imagine the stress of all of us, except me because i was drunk

let's leave the story with I hide my drunkenness to my mom, i slept in the shower until 12 o'clock and i don't have a hangover

now, i really want a BF and i don't know, maybe I'll kill myself doing exercise... that way I at least be focused on something else

having a girlfriend is nothing compared to my friends

hi guys this post is about... well it's about my ungrateful friends(and with that i only mean friend), literally "SHE" is going to be a really horrible girlfriend for anyone who approaches her, of course if you saw my other posts you will know of who am i talking about

i don't know why i didn't post this before but whatever, i'll post this now.... (story alert)

changes

well if you've seen my blog in the past then you knew that it was all green and nature but i decided to change almost all of the format in this blog, not because i didn't liked my past design but i felt that it was the time to change; not only change my blog but also things in my life because i may be excellent in my organized,studying and working life but i'm a wreck when it comes to feelings, friends and all that sentimental stuff

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FOR ME!!! =D

yeahhh, now i'm 6teen and i got my easy going swagger and stuff, and what could be a better start going to the premiere of harry potter and the deadly hallows pt2 and driving =)

well... i don't have my licence yet but i'm going to arrange all that stuff in a couple of weeks, nothing i can't handle

the now generation

(no, i'm not going to talk about the black eyed peas' song(kinda))

well, this post is about social networks like facebook, i had this post in mind for 1 week and now i'm gonna post my thoughts.

burn in hell bitch pt2

this is the second part of "burn in hell bitch" and in this post i'm going to say what paola and i did after the conversation
it results that paola gave her block to andres the firsts weeks of class and he has in his mind that the block of paola is also his, on andres' drawing class from last year he made a school bus
i told paola that the drawing had to be burnt, so i rip that stupid drawing and she and i wrote things like "andres burn in hell", "i hope you get raped", "you stupid motherfucker", etc.... then we put the drawing on the floor, then i spit it then paola burned the drawing, and like she told me, "a big weight out of our shoulders" meanwhile i did a video of the drawing being burned but today i can't post it but i will do it on this week if i got the chance

cya guys until my next post in no time, IZZY out

burn in hell bitch pt1

hi guys, I've recently posted about my foes, i only talked about one person, Andres, but there are like 4 more but in this post i'm gonna concentratre only in him.
today i went to my best's friend house and we were studying for math and physics, well after we finished are studies we were talking about Andres and something that happened in school, and i'm going to tell you what heppened.....

today in drawing class we were doing things, omiting that, after we finished our class, the group of class of Andres went to the class room for there class, andres walked into the class and ask for paola's block because he didn't had one, he was really pushing paola and after that he asked me for my block, i was just pissed off, what a hypocritical gest of him, i told him "ohh hell no" and i walked away from the class room but... paola was still there so i was on the door waiting for her..... that's not all then in recess he was talking shit about us, naturally paola and i started to laugh because it was so funny then when paola was alone andres came to her and then he showed "the finger" and said "paola scumbag" and she said "uhhhmm ok" (i was soo pissed off of paola because she didn't said anything to him)

Friends & Foes pt1

We all have friends, they are crucial in your life and depending on the person they can be in short or large numbers, I like to belive that I am the type of person who was a short number of friends but also has a large number of known people.
In this post I'm going to name my bests friends, I've already named Kevin, he's my friend since 1st grade, the was born in February 9 and he has 14 years old also he is stubborn and cocky, if you don't do things at his way he will grab you, throw you on the floor, kick you and spit you at you face, that's what make us an explosive combination, when we do things together we do espectacular things but in the way its full of friction
Another of my bests friends is Paola, she is also my friend since 1st grade she was born in September 19 she's 15 years old, she's like my sister we are really close but is not what you think, we are only friends nothing sexual there (not that I want to)

misunderstoods

well this is one of my bests friends, Kevin, he is a great friend, a little cocky but he's OK....

recently i wrote in twitter that why do people use twitter to put phrases like "friends are great and never end but a real friend sticks with you 'till the end" if in the the page says "what's happening" so you need to write things that are happening to you at the moment right, not like facebook that says where you write "what's on your mind"
well he is one of those people that write phrases and i wasn't writing about him, i was writing in general; the thing is that he was connected in twitter in the time i wrote that and he took it personal
now he doesn't answer my tweets or my BB PIN messages
the worst part is that he is now writing hate "phrases" about fake friends and i think that he's writing them to me and i'm now stuck in that friendship