2nd day of school

hi guys, yesterday i started school, it's my last year finally and i thought that i was going to start kind slacking off though... it's just the start i thought, well WRONG!

I thought this week was going to be slow and i was going to be able to read my comics with my cellphone but no! it has all been organizing and stuff... right now i'm doing a presentation for 2 weeks and I'm  really active

i wanted to start slow but something inside me makes me do activities on time and keep organizing everything

the fucking luck of being gay

hey guys, you know one of the horrible things of being gay?
that when you're in the best physical shape, when you're being a great person with others and and it's all relatively awesome YOUR 2 EX START TO DATE!
gays are shameless for real
the news of my 2 ex is 2 weeks old and they are already over but it was hell in the meantime... my first ex, alejandro, i hate him with all my being but my second ex, jim, we at least are friends

i remember like 3 days ago when i was drunk and started to hate them on twitter... the good part was that my mom relaxed me(she didn't realized i was a little tipsy, Fuck yeah!) and then i apologized with jim because he didn't deserved to be treated like that by me...
alejandro, that's another story, at the end i just told him that i was tired, that i was tired of all his shit and the void that he has inside him will not be filled with dating others and dumping them when he gets tired

soo... I'm ok again, results that they broke up the before because jim didn't thought alejandro was being honest nor committed to a relationship... and i didn't knew that so that's why I exploded

Clothing issues

Hi guys, today i wanted to take ALL horrible things off my closet... It comes that I'm throwing 13 t-shirts, and you know the really bad part, there are only 7 t-shirts inside my closet.
Maybe because my mom made laundry and there are a lot of things that are missing but The fact is that i really need go shopping and now I'm desperate because my mom is never gonna buy me the expensive things that we all like so i really need a job soon
I'm telling  my mom to buy me the newspaper tomorrow, I'm not gonna keep baring this anymore
Hopefully i get a job in a week or 2

Changing at 17?!

Hi guys, as i told you before on Monday was birthday and i am now 17...
Well, on that day i spent all morning in a bank and i didn't lunch with my mom and that sucked on my own birthday, the day after i went again to another bank and the day after that i went again to a bank
Im also dressing different, Im using more shirts (in a cool way) and yesterday when i went to visit Kevin (a friend) he said that i looked changed i a good way(i told him that he still looks like the same bitch that he is... Friendship XD)
Now i don't know why but I'm really getting serious about getting a job, for real, in Venezuela the homeless people are like that because they want to!, in here education is almost free, and you can get a job easy also... You just have to look
So now, then i finish posting this I'll take a bath, get dressed and go buy the newspaper and look for a job

Today i'm 17

Finally, today's my b-day and now i'm 17... It's  just matter of one year until i have 18 and i can do all the things that i wanted to do... Legally

Work fever

I'm in a moment in my life where i want to work to have money obviously, but not only that, i want to feel independent and i feel that having a job will make my life less depending on my mom
I really need a job, i even went to the job ministry to know what to do to have a permission for underage kids that want to work, i have to do a lot of weird things but i know it's worth it
The things that are in my wish list are: a laptop(hopefully a mac book), a car(need a lot of commitment on this), CLOTHES!!! (I'm using things that have like 2-3 years for god sake), and a razor for cutting my hair xD
I'm really looking foward with this, but i need more focus! I have to be 100% committed and i know i aren't
I know it's gonna be challenging in the future but i have to step it up

why can i never get what i want?

hi guys, it has been a lot of time since my last post but now I'm back (hopefully)

since I came out of the closet 2 months ago I've have been feeling awesome, I'm eating better, I'm less stressed, I'm doing exercise and I'm getting kinda sexy... for real, I'm not the same person

I also have better self esteem... or I had better self esteem until I realized that all my friends have a boy/girlfriend, my 2 best friends since we were like 7 years old, Paola and Kevin are also homosexuals and both of them have a partner, and what i hate the most is that they're awesome, their partners are AWESOME

I always wanted someone, who doesn't? but now I'm getting depressed because I'm the only one that doesn't have someone, I'm thinking that I will never have someone no matter what i do, I'm acne free(not like Paola and Kevin), I'm ripped(not like Paola and Kevin), I'm tall(not like Paola and Kevin).... I'm not talking shit of my friends, the thing is that I have things that they don't have but they are happier than me

yesterday was a really crazy day, the 5 of us, Paola, Kevin, Madelaine, Jonathan and me(the 5th wheel) were at Kevin's house and my main goal was to NOT seeing them make out, the last time i saw Kevin and jona kissing like they were at a porn movie I started crying when I was in the shower of my house

we were going to see a movie and spend the time there... well, since i knew we were going to see a movie I knew that i was going to be the only one seeing the movie

we were at Kevin's room on the bed and I was in one corner, i was going to watch the movie and i was also going to block the things that the others were doing with pillows, at first it was working but then I got sad... now i know that I don't need to see them kissing to make me sad, i only have to know that they're a couple to trigger the sadness... so I got out of the room crying with a pillow on my face and then Paola came with me, we sat and started talking and she cheer me up a little

at the end we were going back to the room and Jonathan was ON Kevin and I just left and entered other room, I was on a bed and i was thinking a lot of things... at the end i just got some bottles of alcohol and I got really drunk and i went to the hot room.... for real, that room was ON FIRE and my theory was right, i didn't felt anything when i saw Paola with Madelaine and Kevin with Jonathan

Jonathan and Kevin were nagging me and I just wanted to drink some more, but Kevin took my glass and i knew that was for the best so i didn't complained too much about that

it was really late so we had to get the fuck out of there because of our parents were going to kill us all and i was drunk so you can imagine the stress of all of us, except me because i was drunk

let's leave the story with I hide my drunkenness to my mom, i slept in the shower until 12 o'clock and i don't have a hangover

now, i really want a BF and i don't know, maybe I'll kill myself doing exercise... that way I at least be focused on something else

having a girlfriend is nothing compared to my friends

hi guys this post is about... well it's about my ungrateful friends(and with that i only mean friend), literally "SHE" is going to be a really horrible girlfriend for anyone who approaches her, of course if you saw my other posts you will know of who am i talking about

i don't know why i didn't post this before but whatever, i'll post this now.... (story alert)

changes

well if you've seen my blog in the past then you knew that it was all green and nature but i decided to change almost all of the format in this blog, not because i didn't liked my past design but i felt that it was the time to change; not only change my blog but also things in my life because i may be excellent in my organized,studying and working life but i'm a wreck when it comes to feelings, friends and all that sentimental stuff

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FOR ME!!! =D

yeahhh, now i'm 6teen and i got my easy going swagger and stuff, and what could be a better start going to the premiere of harry potter and the deadly hallows pt2 and driving =)

well... i don't have my licence yet but i'm going to arrange all that stuff in a couple of weeks, nothing i can't handle