money, travel and so many worries

recently I've been a little more neurotic than usual, i have this freaky tendency to wanting to produce money, i don't know why but i feel that if don't start making money now i will be miserable, and i know that's a little drastic considering that i only have 16 and i'm planning to get the hell out of this country to go to the United States, Canada or the U.K.; but i really feel like i'm lacking money and that's not true but i just desire a job so badly

BUT what happens if something goes wrong and i get stuck in this communist covered as socialism country... we all know that socialism is exactly the same thing as communism and i don't know why countries cover that out



i may be smart but i'm not the brightest guy of my schoolmates, like, what if my grades are not high enough to get accepted in another's country university... or what if i don't have enough money to travel to another country, all this things freak me out and i don't know what to do if something goes wrong, my main goal is to get out of this country
this is my simple plan
A._ get really really really better grades
B._ search a university in canada, if i don't find it then search in the U.S. and for last resort try to find one in the U.K.
C._ ask for my student's visa in an embassy of the respective country
D._ if i have no problems, i'll start studying as fast as i can
E._ administrate the money right, i will surely get limited dollars when i get out of this country
F._ get a part time job while i study

if i don't make this i swear that i'm gonna kill myself.... WHOAHHHH!!! i don't think that i'll kill myself but if i fail in anything and i can't get out of this country or if i have to return back i will never live with myself and i think that's worse than killing myself